Still apprehensive, it struck me later on as I watched a movie that she was my friend. She did not care about what anyone around here thought, she saw some characterizations that were completely off and she felt that I was wronged. So she did something. Nothing that would change the course of history but something that is right. No one had to agree with me, but I think it would have been nice if someone told others that I am not an a-type stereotypical New Yorker who is a hermaphrodite. Of course I am taking that out of context to get a point across. It made me realize that I cared more than I should about things on this board. It also made me realize how blessed I am, that in my real life I have such good people around and how dear they are.
So, this brings us to the point of why I was even discussing what had transpired with a friend who has nothing to do with anything that has ever happened on this board. It is simple, it is because I am an intelligent human being and I use everything as a moment to learn something new, to grow through a process and continue to strive to be a better person. I take what I write and say to others very seriously. My words are mine and that entails my thoughts, character and moral fiber. The conclusion is that this board does not make me a better person. While I might enjoy the banter and candor of a few, there is nothing this board has done to make my world a better place. Really if anything I think it has been the exact opposite. And judging by how many of you behave, say and what you do, you too are in this same spot.
See, I will walk away with this knowing a few things- I never wrote anything on here that was not truly me- so sorry I am not playing the role of someone or a person from long ago. I am truly a female from NYC who loves NASCAR, and hates drama that is not in a race. So I know I have been honest the whole time, while I have heard many accounts of people come on here playing the female who is a male or stories like that. I am just sad that I became so skeptical of something on a computer screen that I too was sucked into a bit of drama. I will call the pathetic card on myself, but it ends here. I choose better, to be a better person, to keep questioning myself, to be introspective to make myself a better woman, mother, friend and citizen of this world.
Am I being judgmental about some of you, yes, but just as I am about myself. See, unlike many I talk the talk and walk the walk. I expect nothing less of myself then I do of others. And some I will imagine will rush to say that I am just a self-righteous blow hard. But I can truly say and believe that I am not, I am just choosing to grow and move on the path to something more positive and dignified.
For some, and I hope you know who you are, I wish you nothing but the best. May your journey be fruitful and pleasurable. For others, I hope you come to the place where you realize that life, a real one is around you, not on a screen in front of you.
And please do not waste your time typing a rebuttal, or another condescending rant- I will never see it, so I imagine that will not being any pleasure.
Ah, I did want to clear up one thing, the reason why I left SC. I did enjoy my 1+ year living down there and would have continued as it was a lovely pace of life and a beautiful state. It was because I became pregnant and was concerned about the education in the state. At that time it was ranked 48th and was far below minimum standards. Even the privates I looked at with the intention of staying down there were not up to par. It was not going to offer my unborn child the academic education that I wanted. At this point it is ranking either 44 or 42 depending upon the list you look up and still considered far below minimum standards for elementary education. So, I made the right choice, gave up a bit of a slower pace for a higher quality of education and hopefully a gift that will last my child a lifetime. Again, a personal choice that worked for me and my family.